I come to the blog every day. I always seem to find all kinds of things to write about, until I'm actually on that blank post, then all the words and thoughts and feelings trickle down from my brain and leave me empty.
That's how my whole summer has gone. It has been a very, very long summer without any dogs. Every day seemed to drag into the next. The evenings were the worst part of the day. That's when it would really get to me. Or going outside alone with no doggie company. The cats helped, but they couldn't make up for the loss of dogs or the fact that they weren't dogs.
Time has been hard to fill. It doesn't help either that I have a bum knee and I am limited as to what I can do. That made it worse. When I really wanted to get something done and distract my mind, I wasn't able to do it. To say I was depressed this summer would be an understatement.
And while I didn't blog much this summer, I did journal. Every day.
I still say good night to all the pups every night. And if wasn't for that spiritual connection with the dogs, I would have never made it through this summer.
It did help that the cats were still here. We've gotten to know each other all over again, which has been good. And since Boxer is terminal, I've been getting extra quality time with him, that I wouldn't have gotten if there were dogs around.
Now we will be going into our first fall and winter without any dogs. I hope Mark and I don't kill each other. lol There isn't anything worse than being cooped up all winter without the love of dogs to get you through. We have decided not to get a dog until sometime after Boxer goes. It would be way too much stress on him at this time with his cancer. So we're going to try and make the best of everything and hope for the best. We only have one life to live and there's nothing better than trying to live it.
Take care my friends. ♥