Four years ago today, we lost our sweet Momma Dog Silver. It still feels like it has been an eternity since she left us. It doesn't feel like she died, but just faded away. She was a spunky girl who had a gentle life force and a nurturing soul. Silver was the counter balance to Brut's aggressive ways. Her genes softened the rough edges in their kids. I see Silver the most in Fiona and Zappa, probably because Silver rubbed off on them being part of their pack.
Silver was our first puppy together who started this whole journey we are on with her kids;
who are now as old as she was when she died. It doesn't seem possible.
She was a good first-time mom. She already had the mothering down by practicing on me. lol She really was a natural. We were so blessed that she took good care of her puppies.
And when those puppies grew up she took a backseat to her own needs and made sure they got the care they needed. She was amazing that way. I always felt so guilty that she was always last compared to Brut and the kids, not realizing, that is what a mother does.
All those years I didn't understand. I thought she just didn't fit in with the rest of them and she didn't. She was a mother first and a dog second. She'd been that way from almost the start of our relationship. I thought I understood the true mother Silver was to me when she was here, now I'm finding a deeper root of what
her mothering has meant to me. Silver was exactly the mother I needed and still do.
So on this day, I honor my girl, who taught me the true meaning of what it means to be loved unconditionally and forever.
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