AND I'm ANGRY...

Brut had three good days in a row, yet none of them were back to his "old" self.  He barked and howled at the neighbor's dog and that was a good thing. He was up and around more and took a short walk the other day.  He seems stable, which means he's clotting.  And that's a good thing.



And I still can't believe this is all happening.

This is my Brut.  My Bruthead.  My Buddy.  My Boy.  My Heart Dog.  My Soul Mate.  And Everything in between.

This whole family runs around Brut.  He is the center of every being in this home.

We've built this entire family around HIM.  His quirks, his snarls, and his heart.

Brut is the cornerstone of our lives.

And I can't believe I could lose him.

He taught me everything a good dog owner should be and none of it was out of text or a trainer.

Brut taught me how to listen to him with every mirco move he makes.

And all I can hear in my head is Aerosmith singing "Dream On."

There has to be a way to save him.  Something that hasn't been thought of or that no one is telling me.
We haven't come all this way with Brut to have it all turn and lose it all.

I'm so angry.

I'M SO, SO ANGRY!!

AND IF ONE MORE PERSON TELLS ME BRUT SHOULD BE PUT TO SLEEP, I'M GOING TO SCREAM BLOODY FUCKING MURDER!!

WHAT GIVE ANYBODY THE RIGHT TO SAY THAT TO SOMEONE ABOUT THEIR DOG????

WHAT ARE THESE PEOPLE THINKING????????????????

BRUT IS A GOD DAMN MIRACLE FROM THE DAY I FIRST SAW HIM.  I NEVER KNEW ONE DOG COULD CAUSE ONE PERSON SO MUCH HEARTACHE AND JOY.  HE DOESN'T WASTE ANYTHING ON THE SPECTRUM OF FEELINGS.  HE'S CHURNED UP CRAP I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW I HAD IN ME TO WORK ON AND HE STAYED ON EVERY STEP OF THE WAY.  NO.  THIS DOG DIDN'T STRUT INTO MY LIFE TO WHIMPER OUT.  HE'S STRONGER THAN THAT.  WE WILL FIND A WAY TO GET HIM THE HELP HE NEEDS.  I KNOW WE WILL.  EVERYTHING I HAVE STOOD FOR HAS BEEN BECAUSE OF BRUT.  BRUT CHANGED EVERYTHING I THOUGHT ABOUT DOGS OR THOUGHT I KNEW.  HE MOLDED ME INSIDE OUT.  I WON'T GIVE UP THE FIGHT.  BRUT NEVER STOPPED FIGHTING FOR ME.

YOU DON'T JUST LET THE ROCK OF THE FAMILY DIE WITHOUT A FIGHT FIT FOR A KING.  AND BRUT HAS A BIG FAT FIGHT COMING!!

Thanks for letting me vent.