I've been through many things in my life that nearly killed me in me in some way or another. The horrific life I've lived has left lasting emotional scars that have left their mark like a branding. The only constant through this hell has been animals, particularly dogs and the close contact I have been so blessed with through my life. Being able to look into those eyes, no matter what was happening, gave me the peace of mind and comfort to carry on another day, another hour, another minute, because all I ever saw was love. That piercing unconditional love that reached deep inside of me to let me know there was more than all of this. One dog started my journey that lead to every animal I ever encountered and those that I was so privileged to have in my life that has aided in this lifelong healing with every painful step I have taken. I can not begin to share my gratitude.
I have scraped the bottom of the barrel so many times in my life that I didn't know which way was up anymore. I have felt more worthless than one person should ever have to feel in a day, let alone a lifetime and I have never felt a reason to really be alive. This was more than being in a tough spot, it has been a way of life that I have been trapped in with no possible way out. Scary doesn't begin to describe it. So many times I didn't know if I was going to make it through, or if I even wanted to. Ideas I still struggle with on varying levels as far as my self worth and value because of my past and today was one of those days.
No matter how far I try to runaway in my mind, no matter what horrors from the past reappear to try and haunt me I have nine tangible beings that help keep me grounded and here. No matter how I feel, or what I think about who I am, it is the eyes and fur of these living being in this home that never let me get too far from the truth. Over and over they remind me every day of my value and worth to them and the many before them who shared in that same truth. They never let me forget how much I mean to them and how precious our love for each other is. They have taught me how to reach out to them all the while reaching out to me when I need it most. I can not begin to describe the countless times of this out pour of this unconditional love as they constantly rally to prove I deserve it. For if it wasn't for the many animals I met in my life, I would never know what true love was/is. Animals saved my life, over and over and over again. So many times I can't begin to count. I have never stopped depending on them and the biggest gift I got in return was learning that they depended on me as well. A concept I am still trying to understand to this day. I may never know 'why' but they have been teaching me each day to embrace it and who could ask for more than that?
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Dearest friend, you are truly blessed because you give as much as you receive. I agree that there is nothing more stabilizing when you are about to sink under the waves is a room full of furry love and a cold nose thrust reassuringly against you. When you doubt yourself or your worth let those impossible to lie pups be your mirror and see your self as the Universe--all things honest and pure--perceive you. Dogs know.
It's people like you that make this world a better place. Deccy x
Beautiful post. Thank you!
We agree beautiful post. Have a really wonderful day.
Best wishes Molly
Dogs are good for us in so many ways! I'm glad they've been there for you!
There are two things that never cease to amaze me (well, more, but I'll only mention two here).
The first, that people can in all honesty tell others who are clearly dog loves "It's just a dog!"
Second, the amazing gifts that dogs give us "just" by being our companions and being there for us in their unique way.
That was so beautiful. Dogs are love for sure!
The love you get from your dogs is unconditional. You are so fortunate to have each other.
I always say my dogs are the best part of my day, every day. We are lucky in that way, aren't we? :)
Oh my, your story sounds just like my new book, Heart to Heart, Hand in Paw. It's about a Vermont woman and her difficult life, and how animals help her heal. If you like to read, I'd love to send you a copy. DM me or email me and send me your address and I'll get one out to you...complimentary. Hug those dogs from me!
Sounds like we have a lot in common! My dogs too, help me get through all the bad days. Just always remind yourself, you are loved and you matter.
I know what you mean--they are so incredible. I am certain they would say the same thing about you if they could.
Been thinking of you lately because my newest foster dog has to be physically separated at all times from my old dog. Its a difficult adjustment but I know its worth it until a better situation can be found. Animals have changed my life too, no doubt about it! Thank you for your inspiration.
I find that dogs ground me. They don't express regrets or become trapped in thinking about things over and over.
They do suffer and can carry emotional injuries with them for a long time. But they are more based in their bodies than their minds. And that helps to heal them and helps us to heal living with them.
I understand. And I also know that dogs have saved my life. Life without them would not be life at all.
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